About My Blog

P1010112Parenting and Attachment is dedicated to sharing information about attachment disorder. It’s common in various manifestations to orphaned children, particularly those who have spent time in orphanages before they were adopted. My mission is to reach out to other families who may be struggling to understand and cope with this mystery as my wife and I did with our 17-year-old daughter and only child, Casey. Unfortunately, we learned too late. This is explained below.

I’m not a mental health professional but a father searching for answers, and I don’t claim to have all the answers. This blog may not be the be all and end all to every answer about attachment disorders, but I want to share with my readers everything I’ve learned so that they have a launching point for their own searches as they seek help for their own children.

My motivation is personal. On a dark, blustery January morning in 2008, Casey, took the keys to our car, drove to the Golden Gate Bridge and jumped, disappearing into the frigid waters of San Francisco Bay. Her body was never recovered. Our precious Casey, the centerpiece of our lives, was gone forever.

She was born on May 3, 1990 in Giżycko, Poland, a town of 30,000 in Poland’s Mazurian Lake District, known as the “Summer Capital of Poland.” She was a preemie, likely an unplannedpregnancy. Her mother, Jadwiga, had two other children sharing a small rural home outside of town with her parents. Casey had a twin sister who was stillborn. Piecing together the fragments of her infancy, we believe that Casey went straight from the delivery room to an incubator to an orphanage in the nearby town of Mrągowo.

She was weak and sickly when we met her at the orphanage on a broiling hot day in July, 1991 – a 14 month old at the developmental level of a 6 month old. But under our care, her transformation was nothing less than phenomenal. Over the years, Casey developed into a beautiful, smart, popular young lady. But things weren’t perfect. I’ve just finished writing a book about my experience as Casey’s dad and my search for answers to her suicide – The Girl Behind The Door. I will keep you posted on it’s progress until it’s available for sale.

That’s where our story begins.

Stay tuned. There is much more to come.

10 thoughts on “About My Blog

  1. I just finished reading your book. With my retrospectoscope, it made perfect sense . I TRIED FOREVER TO FIX OUR ADOPTED SON, who committed suicide eight days short of his 43rd birthday. I WISH I’D read your book before I HAD CHILDREN. IT MADE ME WEEP. THANKS FOR WRITING IT.

  2. Thank you for your blog I have been going through this with my adopted daughter who almost killed herself. She is now with adoption specialists at a residential treatment center in Utah. Luckily I knew enough to send her somewhere that specialized in adopted children however I do wish I knew about this earlier and could have prevented a lot of her Behaviors. If there are any ways to get the word out or possibly get more therapist to understand this I think that would save a lot of these kids.

  3. My heart goes out to you in your loss of Casey. Sadly, a person does not have to be adopted to have an attachment disorder. This condition can be passed down from generation to generation to generation through unaware parenting. In this “looking good society,” my sense is that attachment issues and species alienation are rampant. At 72, have grappled with attachment issues my entire lifetime. No suicide because I couldn’t do that to my children, but the drive was and is always there. Thank you for raising awareness. One day, perhaps our country will wake up to the fact that emotional health is most important to survival. Casey was very lucky to have you for a dad and also her mom, for the time she did. I imagine that it can be very draining to live a double life, which is what Casey must have felt….. Thank you for trying to help others……. By the way, an understanding of pre- and perinatal psychology can give one much insight into the developmental process of the psyche…. It may not change the basic drive, but cognitively, perhaps it can be helpful for survival.

    • Thanks Ellen for your thoughtfulness. Yes orphaned children like Casey are but one group that can suffer from attachment issues. By the same token many orphaned children do just fine. So I focus on those who aren’t.

  4. Your book so incredibly moving and so true to home. Thank you for sharing your painful story and trying to help others who feel so hopeless. I pray we can find someone in the bay area to help our son feel more comfortable in his own skin.

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